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So yeah I really don't like liking boys because I never think that they like me back.
I don't know if I should tell the guy that I like him or what.
for those of you who know who I'm talking about tell me if I should write him a letter.
a myspace letter.
tell him in person.
or have a friend tell him.
apsdiurypw4uioetrhwe;rjfh
thats how I feel. Frustrated.
not only because of the boy situation but also because of my school situation.
FUCK MR.MILLER!
he told me that he was going to "help" me get my grade in his class up but because I did REALLY good on an essay he told me he wasnt going to help me any more and then took off all the grades that he put in there and now I still have an F.
also,
FUCK MR.NORMAN!
I HATE going into his class because every time I do he always yells at me for some rason and the threatens me by saying hes going to call my mom and take away all the extra work I've done to get me to the D+ that I'm at. and hes going to make my grade an F again.
I CAN'T AFFORD TO GET LOW GRADES AT ALL!!!!
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along with that stuff,
I have to pay my mom $40 because I was making phone calls to Josh.
I heart Josh so I don't really mind but still shes taking the money out of my bank account and thats all the mony I have in there.
so I'm back to being broke.. well I was before but yet now I'm FLAT broke.
I NEEEEEED HELP WITH THE BOY SITUATION!
so yeah talk to me hun.
~<3Kayse
also.
01. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie remind me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be...
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. Put this in your journal.
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[23 Apr 2005|01:39pm] |
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Fatties / BFFs ♥
( Shit Nukka! )
fun stories.
IM GOING TO THE FAIR TONIIIIIIIIGHT!!!
Ill try to get pictures but my Camera broke!!!
but I'll surely tell you everything that happens
♥Kayse
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[19 Apr 2005|06:28pm] |
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uhm..
so yeah I really dont like being Depressed about my Fucking weight and Looks.
why doesnt any one like me?
what the heck is so wrong with me?
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im going to go to the gym and im not going to stop till i get to size 5 pants or 130 lbs.
thats still alot but what ever its also ALOT less than what i am now.
sorry dont mean to complain but i dont know what elst to do right now.
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[18 Apr 2005|08:32pm] |
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so yeah here are some pictures of all my Homies because i love them.
( Heyyy Boyyyyyyy )
Have Funnnnnnn
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| TEAR! |
[19 Jan 2005|01:31pm] |
My mom has to go into surgery on Febuary 8th.
and its back surgery.
i hope shes okay..
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[09 Jan 2005|08:20pm] |
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okay so. my mom, my moms boyfriend andy and my grandpa all went out drinking and karokeing. and then some stupid teenage boy decided to slap the glasses off my grandpas face, then at the end of the night my mom grabbed on of they guys by my collar of the shirt and slapped the SHIT out of him then andy knocked out one of the other boys and my mom turns around and see my grandpa throwing punches at another boy and then he gets him in a head lock and slamms him on the table. haha a 17 year old buff/tall boy getting the shit kicked out of him by a 72 year old man.
HAHA fucking loser!
on to another topic..
i think im dying.
ive been waking up almost ever day with a headache for the past month and a 1/2.
i swear i have a brain tumor!
but yeah i went to the docter about all of the shit my body is going through and they told me that i didnt have one.
but yet today i woke up with a headache, but this one was the worst its EVER been ..EVER.. around 11am is when it stated to get at its worse. i was crying because the pain was soo intense, i was shaking, and i was dizzy, i passed out, and i felt as if i was going to puke.
i hate it.
and it wont stop.
every day i have to deal with this shitty ness.
and im taking some new pills and they make me feel like ass every time i take them.
i cant stay still if i do ill pass out.
blah,
Kayse
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| EFFING OUTCH! |
[04 Jan 2005|04:21pm] |
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i just went to the docters and good news
im NOT dying.!
skor!
but yeah i had to go and have blood drawn
for 3 different reasons
and i have to go get different birth control pills
and flownase.
ive taken a bunch of new pictures and im going to size them and post them in the next comment!
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[26 Dec 2004|12:00pm] |
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Heyy Dolls, okay so me and Mat broke up if you guys didnt know.
im slowly but SURELY getting over it.
ive been talking with my Joshie alot more<3 on the phone
i had a good christmas
how about you?
the best things i got was an MP3 player and a Switch Blade!
the only thing that sucks is my granny has cancer and its the bad kind that can kill you if you dont get rid of it =(
my uncle is back to doing drugs.
hes at his all time low.
my Best firned is now Grace, shes been there for me through every thing<3 i love her.
i just wish i had more friends like her that acctualy care.
whats with the world these days??
no one seems to care any more.
bleh i have to go or id write more. ill be sure to keep up with this from now on. ive just been too bussy.
MUCH LOVE DOLL<3
~Kayse
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[11 Dec 2004|11:49pm] |
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i dont want to break up with him but i feel like i have to because thats what every one wants. and joel can just fuck off and die for all i care because hes just jealous. well dont worry fucker you dont have to be any more you got what you wanted you got you precious Mat. because obviously he doesnt want me.
for those of you who didnt read the blog this is what the fat fuck said (joel)
RainingBlood138: boobies
neverending816: penis?
RainingBlood138: obviously
neverending816: uh huh.
neverending816: is mat with you.
RainingBlood138: no
RainingBlood138: he should be coming to pick me up soon
RainingBlood138: we're gonna go get trashed
neverending816: i need to talk to him. but like always hes not answering.
RainingBlood138: oh yeah? gonna break up with him yet? lol
neverending816: if he wants to then i guess but i wasnt planning on it.
RainingBlood138: oh lame
RainingBlood138: whats so important
neverending816: why do you want us apart?
RainingBlood138: i'll tell him so he can consider calling
RainingBlood138: cause you're an idiot and mat would be better off without you
neverending816: and what does he think?
RainingBlood138: shit if I care
neverending816: and how come before you were telling me that i could do better than him.
RainingBlood138: alright, off to party, he honked
neverending816: why change the story
RainingBlood138: well i was wrong
RainingBlood138: you cant
RainingBlood138: but he can
RainingBlood138: hopefully tonight he will
RainingBlood138: muahaha
RainingBlood138: off to party
RainingBlood138: fatty
neverending816: not funny
RainingBlood138: not kidding
RainingBlood138 signed off at 8:35:19 PM.
i went to oliveras with grace after he left and i felt alot better after about an hour of Venting with people. but i feel so worn out from being so worked up.
i was so upset that i was an inch away from passing out. i even threw up, i havent thrown up sence 3rd grade. then grace came to the door. i bent my rings and put a hole in my wal and hurt my heel. ive NEVER in my life been so upset. i dont know what to do. i know what i have to do but i cant. its just too hard. i mean come on now I LOVE HIM!! but i figure sence he doesnt care about me then why is he with me and if he wants to go out with joel and get wasted and mess around with other girls then i should just let him go have his life how he wants it. i know he doesnt care about me because when i need him hes not here, when i call he doesnt answer, when im hurt he laughs, when joel makes fun of me he laughs.so im just goign to let him be who he wants to be.and if he wants his life with me in it then he has to change. i want him to get rid of joel but i couldnt ever ask some one to stop being friends with some one else. my friend Hank made me feel cared about tonight but hes like Hard Core Gay<3
i really wish i could just die knowing im loved by some one i love.
..fuck life..
tell me what you think
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[28 Nov 2004|05:48pm] |
wow, yeah its been FOREVER! sence i wrote on this. not much has been going on. me and mat are still together, i love him. me and kellee arent friends any more. thank god. im getting almost all c's but one f..in german. but i really dont care because its considerd an art and i only need 10 credits of it but im taking Dance again next year so theres my art i dont get. i cant believe im going to be a senior next year. i actualy wish i was one this year. WHY CANT SCHOOL JUST BE OVER WITH ALREADY!?
so how has ever one else been. ill try my best to keep writting in here. i just always forget about it. heh.
much love doll faces
Kayse
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[16 Sep 2004|09:26pm] |
wow. me and Mat broke up for about an hour.
that was the hardest hour ive ever gone through, i think.
</3Kayse
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[07 Aug 2004|06:49pm] |
Scene boys = HAWTxCORE!
.....The End.....
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[03 Aug 2004|02:15pm] |
AUGUST 14TH ALL OF YOU AT MY HOUSE.
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[01 Aug 2004|01:37pm] |
You're Gangsta Bitch Barbie. You're tough and you
like it rough, and of course you like to pop a
cap in any wiggers ass.
If You Were A Barbie, Which Messed Up Version Would You Be?
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HAHAHAH THATS RIGHT IM SUCH A GANGSTA YO
Your Heart is Black
What Color is Your Heart?
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TEAR, IM SO DARK AND LONELY.
You are my Smoothie!
Which object in my refrigerator are you?
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OHHH YEAHHH I HEART SMOOTHIES! but when there icy, not ew. haha
Fun-loving Dino...
You are kind, caring and generous. Always playful
and full of fun. Can be stubborn and love to
make a point of letting everybody know when you
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How do you approach life? (Animated animals)
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HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA HOLY FREGGIN' WOW!! I LOVE THIS ONE!!
You are... KNUCKLES!
Nobody messes with you and gets away with it. Sure,
you're a little dense sometimes (not to mention
easily fooled), but once you've go the facts
straight you know what to do and you do it
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(Aztec), Shiva (Indian), and Ra-Atum
(Egyptian).
The Phoenix is associated with the concept of life,
the number 0, and the element of fire.
His sign is the eclipsed sun.
As a member of Form 0, you are a determined
individual. You tend to keep your sense of
optomism, even through tough times and have a
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Phoenixes are the best friends to have because
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Which Mythological Form Are You?
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WHOA! I LOVE I LOVE
okay thats all i feel like posting but im still going to take them!
tell me what you are!!
<33kayse
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| THE AQUABAST SHOWWWWWWW YO! |
[31 Jul 2004|12:09pm] |
so yeah!,
the aquabats were AWESOME i love seeing them play! and Bad Credit was there too! dude, if you dont know who Bad Credit is..........LOOK THEM UP YO!........... their soo awesome too, they remind me of beasty boys but with some ska and rawk er something, alot better. haha. OH! and when we first got there we were just standing around and then i heard some one yell "duck duck goose!!!" and me and Nikki got like whip lash looking to where it was yelled and then we ran over there and played<333.ANDDDD! there were two japanese ladies that had yukalalies!! and they were playing songs! ahahhahha they played a ramons song! it was awesomeXcore! Tomm you missed out Mannnn
KATTIE! IM SOOO SORRY I COULDNT GET YOU A PIN!!!!!!!
heres why.
so yeah even though the show was awesome it was also horrable, i passed out twice the croud was SOOO compact together it was INSANE! like i thought i broke a few ribs. and i had elbows going every where, no one could move and it was like taking a sweat shower. ew. i passed out once in the middle of the croud because i couldnt breath and then some one picked me up and held me and there was this Psychobilly guy and i kept falling because i was in such a WIERD position like my feet were over WAYYY over to the side of me and i was also leaning back and i dont know id have to show you. but i couldnt move my feet so when ever i fell i still couldnt move and the psycho guy helped me up a few times and then held me and then told me to get in front of him and he was Up Front and Center but i told him i couldnt move and then he kind of pushed me and my arm was stuck between some random people but i made it! haha too bad he had to leave im the middle of the show once he left i almost got killed by some croud surfer that landed on my head so now my neck is all effed up. i have a huge bruse, well a feww bruses, but this one is right over my left boob where Kyles elbow was the entire time! and i finaly couldnt take it any more so for the last two songs they played i SOMEHOW made my way out of the croud and i almost fell because i couldnt feel my legs at all. and i was shaking like CRAZY! and then i went to the bath room and passed out again luckaly some gal was nice and helped me back up and out of the bath room.....THANK YOU LOVELY LADY!.......
NOW FOR WHAT HAPPEND AFTER THE SHOW::
we went out to Kyles car and i was TOOOO effing tired to care what ANYONE thought so i just litteraly got undressed right there and changed into DRY clothes! there were people all around because they all just got out of the show too but for once in my life i didnt care what people thought about me at all. =). and then we drove around looking for a Denny's and we finalyfound one and ate then started our way back home<3 i kept telling Kyle what way to go but NOOOOOOOO hes a guy so of course he wouldnt listen to me. so he took the LOOOOOOONNNNNGGG way home and once he realized i was right he was mean. Tear. and to think i like him. Gah. haha
well yeah i think thats all i have to say for now. this was really long so if you read it all ill love you for ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and ever.
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[29 Jul 2004|09:33pm] |
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and the thing that i realized is, well i dont like the old crue. i mean there fun and all but they just seem to make me sick. i love hanging out with Nikki, Grace, and Kyle theres so much fun and Nikki and Kyle are SxE so i wont get tempted to go back into my old ways i thought it was fun while it lasted but i realized that it was just a waste of my life and i have no use for it at all. and i think you Nikki for becoming better friends with me your an awesome gal and i love you for that. i still like most of my old friends but what the do and what their into isnt me any more. i see things in a different view and i like this side more.
Thank You Dolls<3
♥Kayse
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